oo; Well, I'm not one for heartfelt rants. I usually edit them over, and they resemble NOTHING of what they should. Having said that, please exuse the typos in this rant. I know there will be so-no, alot. However, I'lltry to fix some, but others will stand there, a testimony to how cold i am. XD

I realized today, actually, like a minute ago, why I fell out of FDD. I got too close. My Characters... they became real. I could sit and think of them as being in that room. And fighting. And it scared me. But...When I abandoned them, I felt as if a Part of me was torn and tossed with them. I haven't drawn them in months. It...saddens me.

However, I always seem to do that. Get to close. The characters become to real. I'm one who believe that a certain amount of escapism is good for you. ITs healthy. Dealing with out world, 100% of the time, it's gonna destroy you.

I listen in all my classes, and what I hear...saddens me. I head talk about sex, lust, gossip, anything and everything under the sun. I'm a FRICKN freshman! I don't need this. I don't know what bands are "in". I don't like rap. I'm happy nearly all the time. I feel so...singled out. /angst.

But...Sometimes I just want to slap them. SHake them and scream. We're freshman! How did we go so wrong in a summer? When we graduated...That was the greatest night of my life thus far. Yea, it was only 8th grade. But I stood between two people I had gone to school with for nine years. One stood next to me in an Alphabetical line every year. It felt so...natural. As if, if I had to stand next to anyone else, it just wouldn't have felt right. I sincerly hope, in HIgh School Graduation, She's next to me again.

No, I don't have a crush on her. I don't really consider her a friend. But she's...a constant. Something that remains. No matter what happens, If I am by my lock in the morning, I will see her.

Maybe it's jsut the stress. I have two projects due, one in just under two weeks, one in just over two weeks. It's gonna be a push to keep my 4.1 Gpa. But I'd settle for a 4.0/3.9,

I'd like to thank everyone who supported me online. Really. I won't type up a big lsit, personally thanking you all: I used to be big on that. So Dramatic. BUt...I realized the people who I would thank, they don't need me to tell them I'm greatful. They know.

I realized I need tmy Characters. Alot. Their crests...they were so real at one point. I could feel Judd's confidence, Know that my Smarter, female coutnerpart (Ami) would be able to do that test better, faster, but be content with that.

BUt oddly, I miss Ororo and her crest of Strength.

I dunno why, but she came a far way from the quiet girl, who jsut seemed to RADIATE strength, and wasn't afraid to give "tough love" where it was needed. I miss her most.

Thank you ifyou actually read this far. I used to judge my pictures and rants worth by how many comments I got: I realized this is stupid. I draw for myself. I love confirmation, that it really WAS good, but I'm alright without it. You can't please everyone.

Thank you,
And Good night.